{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

Saturday, November 29, 2008

5:41 PM

I hung up the phone tonight,
something happened for the first time,deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever
Feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you're all alone
All that we could be, Where this thing could go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another Crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you
Are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I'm trying, trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin away, goin away

Has it ever crossed your mind when we were hanging
Spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more
See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever

Friday, November 28, 2008

9:12 PM

Back frm batam.
half completed dorm
hopefully the ''contractors'' there will finish up the job.

the kids' soccer are damn good.
every other day been playing i guess.
bought them a proper ball.

transporting bricks,filling bricks,hacking soil,etc were some stuffs we did.
the smile and joy on their face can nv be bought using money.
All good things come to an end. =D
i was kinda quiet thru out,
well i shld b mre noisy, involved n play w the kids ..hah

good experience thou.
trip shld hav lasted longer coz we shld at least help them complete it..
haiz..too bad

brought a off pink converse as sch shoe next year.
dirt cheap compared to Spore

hmm shld update mre in detail soon,hopefully? -.-
sian

super long stick n cute box.
the pack is less thn 2bucks -.-
got it back for remembrance =P

Mawai eco camp in 2more days ?

hmm sometimes we shld jus shut up.
shutting up is better thn trying to talk
whn talking makes ppl loathe u .
get it?

ermm..i guess i shall say it out soon
wana e bothering load off my back!
soon sooon sooonn!!!!!

Sunday, November 23, 2008

1:25 PM

dancing (sitting) to the (arab) music =.=

Renoma advertisment yo!

Santa claus huh?

Omg super on army boy wana be ?

Friday, November 21, 2008

12:51 PM

lol,siao.almost 1 mth of holidays pass le.
waste so much time doin nth alr!
haha, no money =(

lol i shld hav lick those ppl backside to get the job.
but ahya nvm la..dun work also good.
i told em i no commitment,
hah,obviously NUM topman all kick me away ah -.-
Zzz

on a lighter note,jus passed the requirement tests for the part time lifeguard.
so well,now waiting for their empty slots.

training s started.
its tough n it suxs.
but it will pump me up
=.= err i hope, haha psycho psycho!!!!
haha today last training for me !!
going batam!
hah

batam is next week thn to mawai!
cool..
haha..mawai most of da guys arnt gg =(
so shld i back out? somebody tell me ehhh..

t38 chalet las tues.
wed suppose to hav trainin so i didnt stay n kinda left at 10plus plus 11.
photo takings all-.-
ended up i missed the last train n almost missed the last bus.
so yea.reached home at 1am -.- like wtf
n yups, i didnt managed to go for trainin on wed -.-
crap.

batam trip still lacked 500plus bucks for fundraising.
everybody like lan lan lidat, sian.
last min bake sale -.-
lol
i dun wana pay money again ah=(

and i ordered $30 worth for my frens
guess what, i ended up paying $20 frm my pocket -.-
u will know why.
what a joke..
pissss!!!

okok..training later and dinner at Clarke quay

Monday, November 10, 2008

how lucky can i get?

9:52 PM

Mans, whn yr down on yr luck, lady luck wun be shining on u for quite some time =.=
i tink, i ve been smelling dungs so far, like wtf

idk what happen on Sun, i guess i ate smth wrong or what,
i got headache n vomited my lunch out.
ended up sick in the hotel,
wasted the day.
didnt buy coz i was down, and yada yada
=.=

it suxs to cut hair w/o contacts coz u cant see shit
idk y i cut there, please my dad perhaps?
i didnt even wana cut whn tht tjs n big bear asked me to during last day of sch la!
ZZz.wth!

i dun quite like or buy the idea that ppl befriend u for some reason, be it the friends ard u or gals or what so ever -.-
im always so nice trying to tolerate n get along w any single yada beings .HAH

Obama- first Amercian black President
everywhre also got him, BBC CNN, CNA dots dots dots.
u better make the world a better place man, black dude!
jus change all the shit yo,
peaceful,wealthy,happy,loving ppl are wanted =)

On a side note.
my overall results are BBCCD
moderation = cheat. idk.
this year is cheat.
all the scam.for show.
whatsoever results day at PAC are unwanted, not seen in da previous years.
what for all this hoo haa thingy ?
y cant we keep things sweet short and simple?

well now tht the sch year has closed, 1 yr almost passed,
remembr this period i was trying to save my ass to promote.
trying to ask for Spp whn i know im ineligible.
oh forget it, i not gona talk abt this now..

the thing is. i got to know 2 ppl cant promote.
i left early tt day,n i didnt offer any words of advice,
well as if it works..but still

yea. the bottom line is still 25/27 will in 2T32 next yr .
what can we say? who can we blame?
as i said, the whatever moderation is crap.
2h2 Us also got up? well im not saying anything.
y other classes get so lucky n scrap thru?
life is unfair.yes.

im pretty much sad seeing not the full class get promoted as well.
whatever next happens?
the cliche thing ; we will all be there for you, dun worry?
dun be sad?
we will be standing beside u n supporting u?
blah blah blah

ive been thru and seen thru it .
all these are jus lip services.
u say it for the sake of saying.
might as well not say it ?
instead by using yr heart ?

they will feel it,if u reli mean it, serious abt it =)

wells, all the best seriously,
i dun regret the bonds forged. friends forever =D

A-lvl peeps. way more to go =)

why do we make it so hard,
and make it sounds so complicated?
till we see it thru the eyes of a child?

Thursday, November 6, 2008

Nobody knows who I really am,i never felt this empty before...

10:36 PM

i dun understand plotty stuffs like Quantum of Solace =(

high chances tht topman,fox,or NUM will call me.
coz i applied for part time.

idk y i even went for interview,
i dun wana work =.=
i wana study =(

im going bankok tml till mon,
whn training officially starts =(

thn reality sets back in.
Ive been living in delusion, self denial, hopeful, in a daze, doing nth beneficial to the society ( oh mans, thts pretty hard on myself? haha)
err oh wells, high time to wake up.
it wldnt happen.

Calling down an angel who will help u believe..
you ve been trying to be so strong,
you been waiting for so long
for a miracle tht nv comes.

idk what i err,
but.
lost.
guide me thru,
the right directions.

NIGHTS =D

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

4:31 PM

There are over 120,000 juveniles incarcerated in detention centers across the US,
Upon release, 75% will either return to prison or die on the streets;

Gridiron Gang

there are quite a number of movies featuring like prisoners or whatever linked with football;
The longest yard,gridiron gang and alot more.

Well Gridiron s still the best i guess,
hah,at least it made some water well up my eyes .
haha..

coach carter~ what is yr deepest fear?

Monday, November 3, 2008

10:29 PM

Acted smart again, it goes like this ;
8am there was kinda already a Q for the clinic at my house.
supposed to meet hong qian at 830
had breakfast w him and we altered our stuffs

decided to go some clinic at bishan since i tot i was gyming w louis all.
alighted at bishan st 22(random)
got super alot of clinics..
so i went to the one w the 'least' ppl n looked the most run down 1 -.-

ok, i hav throat infection yadayada..
& it cost?
$44 ??
wtf! 1 cough mixture and a bloody antibiotic..
wa lau ehhhh...
suxs can.. super got con-ned -.-

GRrrhhhh, y do i hav to make such stupid small mistakes =(
so hate it ! Zzzz

went back to sch to meet the guys.
bad news !!!!
nik nic junkai n tom were kinda banned for batam and mawai.

i shant say much.
too sian alr.
its all a dream,
i hope
=( =(
well, im always w them whn such shits happen..
and i guess he will b thinking im their advisers -.-
crap

slacked w them half the time in sch thn town for awhile.
went home to bathe,
cross the street to XW s place to play pool

yes, i sux at it TOTALLY =(

Saturday, November 1, 2008

11:34 AM

well im still sick-.-
Agrhhh,Grrhhh!!!

a moment ago i tot;
the hardest thing to do, is to take the first step,
(w regards to anything).

but now,i think..
the hardest thing is to grow old,
and forget abt things here and there,
get grumpy,
bear the slightest grudge,
having emotional upsets now and then,
etc

it jus suxs.
it isnt easy to overcome -.-

XxXx say y am i so not open up,
ask u out like invite king lidat.
of the 10000000times ask u go church also nv go..
ehh i went once hor ! -.-
go for outing to meet new friends also lidat..

am i seriously not open-ed up?
idk,mayb i guess..

mayb yr christianity faith made u more open up?
socialise more? ahya idk la..
ARGHHH christ -.-

erm ok sorry -.-
i will try .. hah..

eeewww we got the darn tentatus jab during p6 alr!!!!
and its still valid coz it last like idk how many years -.-
the doc still asked us jab, nv tell us properly -.-
waste money ,ache for nth =(
sry jas..hah
well better be safe thn sorry.
im safer for 10plus years now!!!!!!!!!!!!
=.=

oh i tot of studying abit now till As finishes ( erm like i will)
been sleeping n doing nth for so many days -.- hahahaha
then after their As finish thn can slack w them and stuffs -.-
LOL

BUT BUT BUT,
the free-est part of the holis is frm now to 7th nov!
after which trainings 1 3 5.
batam, mawai..

eeeewww SUXS =(