i guess i
hab to start mugging
le..i begin to feel
abit shitty ..thinking back..its not like secondary sch
le..do i feel happy
failin so many things?
haha i tot i feel numb,but
tt not the case..
thinkin back last yr if i had study harder n dun waste my time on things i
shld be
doin,outcome will b different
nw..nth worked out,
makin me like a total fool,
waitin..it looks
lik im walkin the footsteps of last year?i hope not?!
haha..it sets me thinking of my attitude sometimes..with regards to
ppl n stuffs..sometimes i proclaim
im gd n stuff..but why cant i see my own flaws
whr sometimes
ppl can..
ur my
gd fren n i take u for granted
tt kinda of things..my attitude changes to different
ppl..
im not
targetin at a single issue..but everything i
hab done or
hav been
doin..perhaps
giv mi a week of
silence whr i shall keep quiet in order to check on my attitude, the way i do things?! haha..sry ppl whom i hav let down,i wil try my best to change .. =) worries not..
9:19 PM
mornin went play soccer alex all..finally made my decision n went back to swimming again in the afternoon..partly jus for e sake of the NYAA gold de skill, the CPR part n everything..haiz..2 mths nv go liao,coach sae finally come back..haha..he s good la..as u can expect w/o trainin n swimmin n stuff, how fast can u go sia.. crap la .. warm up 8 already die liao..shows seriously how lousy am i sia..haha..2nd lap i already cant keep up,dieing le..omg..i dun wan go back next week sia..slow like sai..wat is this man..haha..got alot of theory gt to study again..LOL..went queensway SC lookin for shoe..didn buy but abt to buy..haha..i wan make my contacts SOON!!! hmm..how to get myself to know my true feelings sia.. haiz..thinking=) it takes time..
Friday, April 27, 2007
holy shit...
9:59 PM
Went to watch Ijc vs yjc bball match today,ij won.hmm,looks like I nd to do so so bloody mre in order to play like them n be cj sch team..tats a dream.I didn’t fulfill my week’s agenda.but I duno y n wat happened.Y did it undergo such an unexpected turn? Wat did I do ?im wonderin..haiz ppl hate mi for all I care. I cant be bothered already.feelin so lost……..
~ everything seems to be my fault~
Friday, April 20, 2007
again..
5:42 PM
haha..i am stressed coz i see the people ard me workin hard n doin well where i m not..bleh..hiaz..wtf is this shit man..phy test i was e lowest. 8/35.bloody hell. phy teacher was a total rubbish person,cant teach well for nuts,borin teacher..hmm most of the time is the teacher s fault,but if we do our part its different..but why arnt i doin that part?even daniel so slack still top most of the test..wat the hell la..haiz..im still contemplating,shld i go back anot..i cant decide for nuts. i told him i wil go back tml,but i stil haven go thru my guide,tml go back duno anythin..n i stil not sure abt goin back..
hmm it has been bugging mi..perhaps i shld do smth to it,n i tink i seriously got to la..lest they sae i v bad..i jus duno how to tackle it, thus i am running frm reality ? perhaps? haiz.. i try to get it done by next week bah..
~i jus duno how~
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
hated--
9:48 PM
Time really past v fast la. My siblings all came back frm camp le,n its like I didn’t realize the days past so fast such tt I cant grasp it. People says jc life is v fun,best in yr life? Omg bull shit man. Thou I am tryin hard to get use to it,but I still feels that it dun appeal to me ..perhaps for now ? eh I shld be a good boy la, but I dun see myself studyin hard,doin hw ? even if that’s the case,I am still rushin thru everyday. My tests are all screwed till the peak. I am damn lost, holy shit. I dun wana to carry on man. I dun wan to see myself getting retain. It s v easy to get retain .. its high time I do something,but the first step is always the hardest.how man? Any help?!
I tied with kinda some decisions to be made. I m wishy washy in cases which I dun wana name, perhaps jus leavin it alone for now.. shld I go back for my swimmin trainin? Its jus an exam where I am by thn a qualified life saver. Preparations for it arnt easy =.= . I guess I lack the determination n wateva to get back. I cant drag it longer le..pls enlighten mi by showin/tellin mi the way somebody?! I duno if I quit ODAC to join bball as cca is a right choice. My gut feelings are telling mi that it was a wrong choice anyways. I want to join smth tt whn I take part in I can achieve smth like medals , etc? thou ODAC is rather challenging and tough, I tink I can learn to take it .. but for bball, winnin a place in nations isnt easy. I start to believe Im not cut out for it . coach told mi to brush up my basics coz its not there yet.. that s damm sadding .. I doubt I can play or fight for 1st 12 sch team player next yr too? Haiz.. I admit im slow in learning things. =,[=
Leaving comments n advice are gratefully thanked before hand =)
Saturday, April 14, 2007
3:29 PM
so borin n lazy to blog..anways speech day yest,school kinda look v diff.. got 50 bucks popular voucher =)
tAda..short n sweet..
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
...
6:52 PM
Soon will have no phone le..haizz..so many 'problems' sia...startin to dread jc life..been havin test lately ,n not v nice results..failed econs..think todae s chem test is gone too..out of 30 marks 15marks was blank.. =.= tot of maths CA in the 1st term where i got 1/40 !!!! omg.. how sad can tt be man.. haizz i dun wan lidat sia.. simply dun like anything;bball training,sch,etc..napfa is in 3 weeks time..still so not fit..haha.. hmm..shld i buy an Asics runnin shoe or a bball shoe , since im in bball also.. suggestions?!!!
Sunday, April 8, 2007
8:55 PM
M1 M1 M1 !!!
gRrr!!
for the past 3
mths the phone bill has been 50 0
ver bucks..n every
mth im screwed.Y
lidat sia..i
hav no idea also..i
didnt call so much either ..but calls is always exceeded by 30 over bucks per
mth..
sms also 1000 plus but my records only 700 over
onli la.. not 1 ,not 2 ,but 3
consecutive mths la..sure got problem de lor..My dad wants to lock my phone?oh mine..haiz..
Tuesday, April 3, 2007
^~^
5:01 PM
Had an urge to change my
blogskin but come to
tink of it,its rather troublesome.So its best to put of the idea for now.
Lookin at my diary,things is
happenin fast.Workload n tests
gettin heavier as the days goes.Went to
sao mu at
CCK last sat,hot day it was.
Haha its a once a year thing so just go,y not?
Had my place changed in class,
sittin in the middle row at the middle seat,1guy n a gal beside mi.The fan
stil makes mi goggy.Grr..NYAA gold..u
tink its
reli tt easy to achieve?Easier being said than done man=( but the question is do or not do ?It will be tough
tryin to weigh the heavy load of studies cum
cca with
tt thing!
Luck is not
goin my way these days,think got to lie low
frm now
le.Today was a slack
dae tt end early but
smth bad happen.At chem lecture,every1 was kinda bored n soon they dozed off. I had always had a idea of
stretchin my arms against the table n see if it breaks.haha.the seats are kinda like a chair thn with a table attatched to it smth lidat,if u duno.Like e others i was bored as well but i DIDNT doze off , i TRIED to listen! but i lean on the 'table'n duno wat i did to it,tink i force it off the stand or wat la.and the whole table broke.It was a loud sound la wakin those asleep up.I was quite shocked too.N Wats left was jus a chair,i literally 'uprooted' the table la.HAixx teacher was =,= haha.. I didnt hit n run la.i went forward to sae wat happen.
GRr tink im screwed,i sense a bad feeling coming tml.she sae report to OM?tink so easy meh?tat time tis guy broke the chair in the LT due to his itchy leg,Bro pauL(principal)announced his name in assembly to ask him to see him.Hope i wun get tt fate.buT i cant escape either
=( Agrh.. LOL
