{Why'd you have to be so clueless?.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

11:45 AM

my plan for TODAY
study study study..
after dinner jog to redhill gym..
do an evening gymin..
=.= lame ..LOL..
now.. i haven study yet !!

Tuesday, October 30, 2007

5:45 PM

From underneath the trees

We'd watch the sky

Confusing stars for satalites

I never dreamed you'd be mine

But here we are

We're here tonight

Singin amen,I,I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried

If everyone loved and nobody lied

If everyone shared and swollowed their pride

Then we'd see the day when nobody died

im pissed!!!

5:21 PM

hmm mon..went for chinese As..paper was average la..
1st crap..i was damn blurred la..i tot can start paper le..thn i held my pencil..after awhile this examiner asked mi to put down my pen ..i tot it was distractin or wat la..thn ok lor ..i put down a while...thn i held it up again..this time he came n say..its not the time to write yet..pls put down yr pencil pls...wth i so paiseh can..haha.. thn i look ard n timin..haha..omg..
thn 2nd crap..i wrote the zhuo wen on the wrong page la..gosh..haha..it was like..luckily i left 1 page..i squeezed all my ans there..haha..hopin for A =)

thn had op rehearsal again this time w daniel ..finally ..
went w shar,joel, pm, nov, jes n ME..haha..lame..to AMK hub..
first time there..i ate some not v nice food..

i put my leg on the seat..whn 2 communters want to use it ..
so paiseh =.=
went for my dental check up..was late =(
was told to inform my parents i can take out braces on 12/12
wa lau..so fast eh..i dun wan .got sentimental value la..
haha sry im kinda a emotional person..LOL..
sian ah..i took hot red n yellow..if i knew it was the last time, i wld take my
FAVOURITE LIME GREEN ..
Im so gona miss all the rubber bands, hot pink.. n other colours..hah..
every good thing comes to an end...

today..
OP ..
nov sae she reached early..so i changed n go sch..reached at 10.30 also..no diff..
not any early...lame..LOL
was quite scary la..my hands trembled for duno y la..no such thing happen lor..
gosh..i nd to stop it from trembling la... =.=
haha...overall was alrite i guess..
T37 gp was rather good..esp ivan ..haha he quite zai la..lol..anws..all in all was alrite i guess..hopin for good grades =)

went to find BP again..the damn clerk sae onli after 5 all finish op thn bro will c...GNN la..waste time onli..keep draggin onli noe..for how many times i went n i got the same ans la..i sae lidat where got fair..thn duno wat the cursed women said..kao kao..i damn pak chek now la...super..i dun wan go further ..but if u noe the feelin..gRRGH..nvm..hah..

went to island creamy..treated kim n nov..
hmm..
went home..

all in all crap!!!

Saturday, October 27, 2007

7:08 PM

heh..today..
morning went to kim s house again for OP rehersal..LOL..again w/o the crucial person daniel..i shant sae much ..but the truth is everything s screwed up by him..nvm..always..im the earliest thn ger n nov..
afternoon swimmin..went back after a break of a mth..haha.. i applied tannin oil!!! did i get tanner??!! haha..i almost drown whn tt guy towed mi back la =.= gosh..
i am tired,worn off now..

mon is Alvl chin,tues is PW...god bless..hope mon wil bear a gd news sayin i can hav another chance..
but seriously.
lookin at myself now, i tink im screwin myself..even today..haiz..
ive again made my back hurt..after swimmin bball for while..i guess i cant take too vigrous a sport nw..haiz..im killin myself..it was better but it was bad again nw..haiz =(

hmm..if u realized tt i hav treated u better, mayb im interested in u ..?!
hah, i dun dare sae much..it might not b true =)

Friday, October 26, 2007

9:59 AM

erm..hah..wat to sae ..hmm..
alrite..every opportunity tt comes by, grab it ..dun wait till too late n totally out of your control.
ehh..dun tink ur super good or wad..jus tt..ok..dun do things such tt u are trying to leave a backdoor for yrself ? get me..
it dun work..trust me..
dun wait till its too late..till u realized..oh its too late goin back ...acting indifferent dun do u good,seriously..it spoilts yr chances onli..
i ve realized these mistakes tis yr..i guess not only tis yr..but.. nvm,always..
hah,mayb ur reli a failure n a nutcase whn u handle such things..coz i tink e last part always screws up..hah..alrite..learn thn
i guess a new 1 is comin by ?

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

6:46 PM

yea..a very fast 1 ..
hav onli 5 mins to com access
i dun nd say y, u noe y..
thks every1 supportin me..
but everything is in my hands now..support is a factor ..it cant help mi walk my way thou
for e 3rd time i guess was chased out by clerk
bro still dun intend to see me..
so ya..
erm i guess..alrite no time...

Saturday, October 20, 2007

12:49 PM

12:17 PM

hmm k alrite..i doubt i will b bloggin after today for various reasons..
k yest i was told i am the only 1 in class under the failure list..which means 7 ppl from my class can take reexam ,the rest promoted. only me..yes me..have to retain..u noe i hav been expectin it to happen..but seriously speaking..u will really feel it whn it hits u..now u noe for sure. so yea..i was damn down..not hiding, tears tryin to come out,but i hid it thou..got to be strong abit la..no 1 can help also.. i have been quite in firm in my stand of wanting to appeal for reexam ..which is quite impossible as over the years retain = retain.. no mre..not happy leave..there r few lucky fellows who failed all but manage to push up to reexam ..for mi, i not so lucky so to sae.. after mod i 1 pass 1 subpass 3 U..no matter wat, it is still 3 U s.. i didnt giv much tot of wat next , so to say..perhaps..i duno.. i didnt tell my parents until yest whn i called them coz i was desperate ? am i ? coz i nd to go for the briefing..handed a letter..didnt reli listen wat bro sae..he jus said dun bother him and stuffs i tink..n anyting can book time on mon to speak to him.. i was afraid to bring up wat i wana sae to him ..so lik a scary cat..i went off..n booked a timing..i feel yest was kinda gloomy.. yes, my dad said i duno the importance.. coz i noe my fate lidat..i still went for cip n stuffs. returning home like 11plus..i shant sae much abt how i feel n stuff la..nvm..i asked my CT for help..but as much as he can help, it was in vain..in short im jus bu fu qi la..onli mi in the class cant move up..

oh well..everything happens for a reason?! perhaps its a turning pt for me? i duno ..i
stil tink spore so big..mus purposely pick n chose me? y the hell..im not as naughty, playful..not i nv study ,etc..i dun wan sae so much anws..i guess i got to throw away this stupid tinking ..grow up pls..
perhaps its really a wake up call for mi on doing thingS?
erm yest went for cip..or sae not cip..or work? erm same thing..easy job as ursher..2 hrs 30 bucks again...n this time invited to the high class dinner tgt w the guests ..haha..food was damn rich la..thou not alot of variety..
took down 2 glass of red wine n a glass of beer..hah..借酒肖愁？omg thats like..haha..

i feel abit high after like going home time..walked w nat ey all to esplanade.i was like 酒后吐真言。i duno y i blurted out some stuffs which i shldnt sae..haha..
i was feelin headache n hot..went home after tt ..i realized i was talking some rubbish which i felt to quite a no. of ppl..nvm..i returned home..duno y..i jus said everyting in my heart out in the sense..oh gosh..i cant hide smth lidat..anws..yea..sry to trouble some ppl..

alrite...today s talk w my dad..in short i will summarise..i must reflect on wat the ... i am doing...
ppl play i play w them does not mean ey play thru out..dun b a fool..oh tt isnt really wat he said..anws he sae ask mi to talk to bro on mon durin the app to giv mi the chance to retake the 2 papers...if u cant accede to my request ..ask him for advice such as giving me the withdrawal letter to poly..coz he tinks i might b e same even if i repeat? m i not cut out for jc ? n a A lvl cert is important..not a lousy 1,but a good 1 , of course..in tht sense 1 yr is wasted...

eh philip wat the hell u r doing? u r seriously screwing up yr life..
Although im kinda fighting a losin battle on mon i guess i got to preserve on ..using tt smallest glimpse of hope..ppl support me..hah..such a long post..
wait for my good news .. =) Hopefully

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

10:47 PM

ehh..mre or less, feelings are settled i will retain..but am i going to take tt lying down? shld i fight for my every chances to get pushed up? i reli duno..if i get pushed up, alvl cant perform also die..cant push up, i must also tink of alternative..i havn either yet..i nd to tink like real soon..time s running out..somebody, someone divine can help me? hah,shld i save my own ass? ...err..i act hav yet to tell my parents..my mum found out frm her friends tt eir sons told em abt their results..i hav yet..so she found it fishy..she called n ask.in the end ..i told her the truth..i told my auntie..but no respond..perhaps they dun wana talk so much also..

on a lighter note..went for bball cip again at raffles convention hall? for some ICA international stuffs to be ushers..haha..all the ppl from different countries came..big,small,white,black,etc..lol..kinda an experience askin them to move..after all the hard work ..standin..i EARNED 30 BUCKS ..cool eh? rather unexpected...haha..zai ah..
=D

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

5:25 PM

hmm..ehh..confirmed le..S U U U S A.. haiz..either direct retain or reexam..but i dun meet the criteria for reexam..so which leaves to means..hah.. i dun wana say..
overall ; maths 41 S chem 24 U econs 33 U phy 33 U GP 41 S
chinese 80 A..
chinese so zai also useless sia..heh..
hmm..

Sunday, October 14, 2007

7:00 PM

The miles are getting longer, it seems,
The closer I get to you.
I've not always been the best man or friend for you.
But your love, remains true.
And I don't know why.
You always seem to give me another try.

So I'm going home,
Back to the place where I belong,
And where your love has always been enough for me.
I'm not running from.
No, I think you got me all wrong.
I don't regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old.
So I'm going home.
I'm going home.

我真想找个无底洞。。。

6:49 PM

hmm..yest nite was literally quite hard to pass.i duno y? 可能是麻醉不了自己吧。
ehh the feelin was abt smth lik last yr.hah,whn i couldnt accept the fact that we arnt tgt,or rather being fooled..but my situation nw is much worse,i tink..
天不可能有决惹人之路吧？可我想是如果你走得不顺，接下来的事也不可能好到哪里。

morning went to get tanning oil from chunkit..had mac.went home eat again n a doze of protein powder before makin my way to delta. met w lester. gym first..had quite a hard time in gym,coz of my back..i cant do too heavy,but it defeats the purpose of me coming yea? an hr later pass,went to swim. i tot after swimmin ,my back will feel better.可是弄巧成拙。instead i worsen the condition..lay in the sun n tan..oh gosh it was the noon sun.scorchin it was. i shld hav known better.zenji came along to tan. after being burned by the damn sun, we decided to go. now thn i realised i cant walk n stand w/o pain in MY LOWER BACK AGAIN. its alway s fuckin giving me problems.. =( im really in for it.. it was like last sat..the pain was excruciating..im serious.
made my way home w pain..hah..uncle help mi treat..I CANT DO SPORTS FOR 1 WEEK AGAIN..Y IS IT ALWAYS LIDAT?好的不来，坏的冲着来。
after my sleep, its still pain..and i got a headache..damn sad..
i guess i got to ask myself y isit lidat?!
ggRH..那种压迫感实在难受。。。

Saturday, October 13, 2007

12-10-07

12:26 PM

hah..writing in chinese is simply hard..haha..i guess i got to get used to it soon..
anws in short..i doubt i can promote..so yea..i dun wan it this way.
jiao lian yest also say..go poly la..i also duno take wat..
whn i hav nth to do, i will startin tinkin abt it n stoned...
its not a normal feeling..it seems so foreign ..i cant describe wat the hell is that feeling..
i dun like it ..y ..
ask yrself ..

hmm wats e world comin to man.. crap couples..reli kan bu guo qu..nvm forget it..

went to buy socks n spent 4 hrs sourcing? haha.. met up with suern n huilu..
thks for preachin suern..it reli strike me..i reli got to sit down n tink abt wats next..i have been tryin to mask my feelings n divert my attention to doing other stuffs all time today n yest..
hmm..

11:44 AM

我似乎感到心灵上的空虚.

Blogger 好像是让我发泄我的不满和考试考到的烂成绩。想一想,我是否有好好地利用它呢？现在用华文打字，也不知打错多少子。好了,费话少说。昨天，拿回大部分的成绩。
Maths 45. E
Chem 26 U
Phy 33 U
被midyrs 拉下来后，maths subpass..min requirement is 1h2 pass 3subpass.
看一看，我哪有一个pass?在去哪找3 subpass 阿？
听老师说econs 得remark因为实在太shocking liao.
就说econs U
GP subpass.
Chinese A.
我也不能升级阿。就是越想越担心。不知如何向父母说。
昨天，我本来还期待我的成绩，不是因为能考好。拿回后，我愣住。

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

5:20 PM

hmm promos over..tt sch still haven let us know the results..onli until next tues..the feelings now is ..u duno wat to feel.. worry,not worried, worrying? hmm i haven been quite relax..isit a bad sign ? i duno..will i get kicked out? hmm..im sittin on e fence w 1 feet on the floor already..haiz..
i noe chem U ..econs got alot of negative comments..
heh..

5:18 PM

have been in a lousy mood...
LET ME PROMOTE!!!