Saturday, October 20, 2007
12:17 PM
hmm k alrite..i doubt i will b bloggin after today for various reasons..
k yest i was told i am the only 1 in class under the failure list..which means 7 ppl from my class can take reexam ,the rest promoted. only me..yes me..have to retain..u noe i hav been expectin it to happen..but seriously speaking..u will really feel it whn it hits u..now u noe for sure. so yea..i was damn down..not hiding, tears tryin to come out,but i hid it thou..got to be strong abit la..no 1 can help also.. i have been quite in firm in my stand of wanting to appeal for reexam ..which is quite impossible as over the years retain = retain.. no mre..not happy leave..there r few lucky fellows who failed all but manage to push up to reexam ..for mi, i not so lucky so to sae.. after mod i 1 pass 1 subpass 3 U..no matter wat, it is still 3 U s.. i didnt giv much tot of wat next , so to say..perhaps..i duno.. i didnt tell my parents until yest whn i called them coz i was desperate ? am i ? coz i nd to go for the briefing..handed a letter..didnt reli listen wat bro sae..he jus said dun bother him and stuffs i tink..n anyting can book time on mon to speak to him.. i was afraid to bring up wat i wana sae to him ..so lik a scary cat..i went off..n booked a timing..i feel yest was kinda gloomy.. yes, my dad said i duno the importance.. coz i noe my fate lidat..i still went for cip n stuffs. returning home like 11plus..i shant sae much abt how i feel n stuff la..nvm..i asked my CT for help..but as much as he can help, it was in vain..in short im jus bu fu qi la..onli mi in the class cant move up..
oh well..everything happens for a reason?! perhaps its a turning pt for me? i duno ..i
stil tink spore so big..mus purposely pick n chose me? y the hell..im not as naughty, playful..not i nv study ,etc..i dun wan sae so much anws..i guess i got to throw away this stupid tinking ..grow up pls..
perhaps its really a wake up call for mi on doing thingS?
erm yest went for cip..or sae not cip..or work? erm same thing..easy job as ursher..2 hrs 30 bucks again...n this time invited to the high class dinner tgt w the guests ..haha..food was damn rich la..thou not alot of variety..
took down 2 glass of red wine n a glass of beer..hah..借酒肖愁？omg thats like..haha..
i feel abit high after like going home time..walked w nat ey all to esplanade.i was like 酒后吐真言。i duno y i blurted out some stuffs which i shldnt sae..haha..
i was feelin headache n hot..went home after tt ..i realized i was talking some rubbish which i felt to quite a no. of ppl..nvm..i returned home..duno y..i jus said everyting in my heart out in the sense..oh gosh..i cant hide smth lidat..anws..yea..sry to trouble some ppl..
alrite...today s talk w my dad..in short i will summarise..i must reflect on wat the ... i am doing...
ppl play i play w them does not mean ey play thru out..dun b a fool..oh tt isnt really wat he said..anws he sae ask mi to talk to bro on mon durin the app to giv mi the chance to retake the 2 papers...if u cant accede to my request ..ask him for advice such as giving me the withdrawal letter to poly..coz he tinks i might b e same even if i repeat? m i not cut out for jc ? n a A lvl cert is important..not a lousy 1,but a good 1 , of course..in tht sense 1 yr is wasted...
eh philip wat the hell u r doing? u r seriously screwing up yr life..
Although im kinda fighting a losin battle on mon i guess i got to preserve on ..using tt smallest glimpse of hope..ppl support me..hah..such a long post..
wait for my good news .. =) Hopefully
